1st of February 2012†

We have recently returned in Amsterdam with joy in our hearts and looking forward to sharing the beautiful news of our son with everyone. However, our hearts were cruelly torn from our chests. During a routine ultrasound here in Amsterdam there were a few indications that there might be a problem. We were sent over to the hospital where a more detailed scan turned the indications into real problems. After a few horrible days the results came back and it turned out that our 34 weeks old son had an additional chromosome number 18 or the Edwards Syndrome. The symptoms of this syndrome are so serious there was (in our case) no chance of survival after birth. Our world collapsed.

The next week, childbirth was artificially started and our son was born on the first day of February. We were so happy with him, even though his soul was left behind in the womb. He is simply the most beautiful thing we have ever seen. He is our son and we are proud to have him!!! It is very strange that it is possible to feel so much joy and at the same time such an intense pain and sadness. He is the most beautiful, most brilliant and coolest boy ever and we cherish him in our hearts.